Motherhood. Finding myself through creativity and balance.

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As you will be aware, I have began preparing and planning for my Wedding day. Upon doing so, making up lists, gathering material and fabrics.. It has all led to some new found and very welcome creativity. Who knew?

Having finished the whole seven seasons of Gilmore Girls, I was on the hunt for a new past time. Something that involved a little less sitting on my ass and a little more thought. Man, those first few months of Motherhood were well spent if I do say so myself but you can’t stay in a newborn bubble forever. It was time to grow and nourish myself now that I had the whole parenting thing under control.

I have began to enjoy nothing more than taking a day trip out with Eleanor and hunting for cute craft supplies and fabrics. Putting ideas together and creating. It’s nice to get busy and to produce something that you have created by yourself from just ideas is really quite thrilling. It brings a sense of achievement and joy.

Having become a new Mother recently, I got a little lost and almost became just a Mum, forgetting that I, too am my own person and need some time to myself for myself. It took a while to figure out some sort of balance and to find happiness from within in every aspect of daily life but I think I’m finding my feet at long last and beginning to suss out a balance between being Mum and yet being myself.

I have come to conclusion that life really is too precious and much to short to waste and wish it away. I can’t remain a prisoner in the home for fear of stepping out and I can’t stop time, rather I can get out and enjoy it. To make the most of each day and enjoy special moments in each day. It is time to start living and appreciate life for all that it is.

I still get anxious going out alone and I do struggle when faced in some situations, especially social events, but it’s never as bad as I come to imagine. I don’t know what triggered such anxiety build ups, I’ve ways been shy but ever since labour I have been having almost mild panic attacks, mood swings and feel as though I will burst out crying at times for no specific reason.

You can’t control the world and you certainly can’t have everything you want but with a little positivity and creativity I think you can do whatever you want and live in the way you wish to live. Happiness can be found from anything, it’s different for every one. For me, I have my beautiful baby, my family and a busy mind to keep me strong. I couldn’t have wished for a better family or to be surrounded by more love. I really am very fortunate.

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Something which doesn’t come easy, after having Eleanor, I would say I sort of shut myself off from the outside and didn’t take any time off. I was in full baby mode all day every day and it began to drain me of me. I needed a release and a relief from Motherhood but  couldn’t figure out what it was. I couldn’t even figure out how to get dressed with a newborn around, never mind find some form of hobby. I guess you could say that Motherhood didn’t come to me as naturally as I would have hoped at first.

With a new venture, I began to plan and prepare for my Wedding day. A small and intimate affair but that doesn’t mean I don’t have just as much help to plan as any other Bride. Through the use of glitter notebook pages, confetti hearts and paper butterfly’s, I suppose you could say I’ve became quite the crafty dab hand. By no means do I mean that my work is a piece of art, I simply mean that I enjoy this crafty business. I think that it suits me well and is good for my soul. Keeps my mind busy and my anxiety at bay.

Lately, my mind doesn’t seem to shut off. I try to drift off to sleep and ideas pop into my head. Both a blessing and a curse. Damn you, insomnia.

As a bit of a magpie, (self confessed and glitter obsessed) I have an eye for all things pretty, I always have and I love putting together looks and ideas that I have planned in my head. Wedding planning has given me a sense of freedom back. This has become a hobby and an escape, something that I would have previously laughed at and not taken serious but have fully got into and can say that I am really enjoying this whole busy business. It really is good to get up off the couch and get out again. I now have something to look toward other than the TV screen.

Although, I will admit, I do still find myself losing hours staring at and holding my baby close.  The most gorgeous little lady I have ever laid my eyes on. What a truly lovely soul.

Back to it, before I turn all proud Mum gooey – the table arrangements, the favor creating, decoration hunting. It’s totally keeping my anxiety at bay and giving me a focus. I used to enjoy nothing more than arts and crafts as a child, that and writing. It seems having grown older, these old hobbies have come back to me..with a vengeance. Old habits die hard they say. Now I can fully vouch for that.

I am happy to say that through finding a balance and getting busy with a hobby, I have really discovered happiness and unleashed a creative spark that I don’t think will be ending soon. I can now again be at peace with my mind and my body. I am much happier with a focus and have started to feel content as a Mother and realise that I am in fact good at being a Mother and with that, I can again return to being myself. Slowly but surely I will get back into my old skin, only it will be new skin and better. Wiser and happier.

This latest creative spark has had me thinking about creating a small business on Etsy. I am not sure what I could sell yet, or if my creations would sell but I’d like to venture into this throughout the year and put my busy mind at work. I think that a hobby has been just the thing my mind was screaming out for and I’m glad that with getting out there, and getting busy I have also become a better version of myself. This reflects well not just on myself, but on my family. Happy mum, happy baby..right?

I have many ideas running ragged in my mind right now. Everything from wedding crafts to creating a local etsy store to getting experience in a florist. I think 2018 will bring a new experience and a sense of peace. I have a few travel plans coming up this year, if I’m lucky I can draw some inspiration from these trips and the travel experience.

Now if you dint mind, I have a wedding to plan. Must get back to work. What would you like to see from Etsy?

Keren.

 

In Bruges.

I have some super exciting news and could use your help and advice. We have set our Honeymoon plans into action and booked up not one but two City locations in the heart of Europe. I am simply here to look for advice of things to see and do on our short trip across Europe. I’m looking to you guys for the advice and recommendations!

Here’s the thing, as we don’t have the time for a full Honeymoon with a child back home, we have just three days to get around and see as much as we can. First up, Amsterdam!! A City I have dreamt of visiting from my teenage years, finally making it across the pond and for good reason too.

Now we have a good idea of what we wish to do and have booked at hotel in a central location. What I’m on the hunt for is the museums you favour, any food haunts that are a must try, breakfast bars, cocktail bars? As this is our Honeymoon and most likely the only time we will have alone to holiday without our Daughter for many years, we are keen to get stuck in and make the most of our trip away together.

Next up, Bruges. Yep, another one to tick off the list and once again another City I’ve favoured ever since watching the movie ‘In Bruges’. What a beautiful place to explore and walk around. I’m really excited about this one. So romantic and dreamy. Get me there now.

The plan is, to hire a car from Amsterdam and to drive the journey to Bruges, we escape the hassle of public transport and can see more of the world in this way, go at our own pace and have a little more freedom. When we hit Bruges, we have booked to stay in a suite on a boatel. Yep, a boatel. We have checked it out and done our reading, it just seemed the best place to spend our one night. It is romantic, central and more so, on a boat. Not something you can say you have done every day, huh?

Has anyone been to Bruges and can recommend a restaurant or activity for two? We are happy go lucky, enjoy culture, history and moreover just walking around and taking in the sights. If you think there is anything particular we should go see, fire away. Open to all suggestions.

We will be doing our own research and creating an itinerary as such bit it’s always nice to hear from others and find out about hidden gems around the world.

Keren x

Made with love. An insight to my handcrafted wedding.

Hi guys, hope everyone is well? I know that I previously stated I’d update you all with the wedding plans when I had some going. Well, you will be glad to hear, the party planning is in full swing and I’m working away on ideas and decor planning. I thought it would be good to do a wee update and let you all hear about how I am getting on.

I’m not keen to give away too much information just yet, I feel a sense of suspense is quite nice and keeps it a little secretive. After all, my wedding day is my baby right now along with my darling Eleanor of course and I keep the day and the organising close to heart. This is mainly due to the fact that as it is my wedding day, a once in a lifetime day for myself and my family, it will hold a special place in my heart forever and I want to keep it sacred and close to me.

As mentioned, my wedding will be a small affair with at most twenty guests,  providing each invite guest makes it along that is. I have been working away in the background hard at getting plans in place for the decoration of the reception room where we will host our wedding meal. Trying to get my plans set and in order for the day as soon when I return to work following maternity leave, I will be lacking the time to plan and organise. Hence why I am so keen to remain full steam ahead right now. I am on a limited time frame.

The reception room we have will cater to our guests of twenty and the room is basically an empty canvas where we can play around and have fun with the decor and design. I have in mind the picture of what I want, it’s just putting it all together right now. The table will be one large round table, with a side table off set for holding the cakes and favours. I have free reign to design the room and tables as I wish. Time to dig in and have a little fun.

I am thinking home made, hand crafted and a little bit bohemian! Lots of floral and pastels coming together in a rustic feel. Whatever rustic means. What does rustic mean? Whatever, it sounds good.

Our wedding cakes will be homemade by none other than my own Mother,the best baker I know, as bias as I may be. We wish for two cakes, one tier and round. A fruit cake with a marzipan and iced topping and also a homemade victoria sponge. By no means will they be showstoppers but they aren’t supposed to be either. If I wanted a perfecly crafted cake, I’d have went to a bakery and have the professionals work away.

I’m busy picking out cake decorations right now. Going for a plain sponge with minimal decor with the Victoria cake and hoping to cover our fruit cake with florals and a pretty yet simple cake topper. Nothing fancy and certainly not perfection but to me, it will be perfect. I will be ready to scour etsy and find a handcrafted wooden topper.

For our favours, again these will be homemade with love by my younger sister and presented in cellophane bags, hand wrapped and crafted in my own way. I have this all set and ready to roll with the bags and decorations already picked out. I will remain coy and keep my ideas to myself for now. I can’t be giving away all my plans after all, otherwise, I’d not keep you interested. If ever I had your interest anyway.

With the room decor I’m raring to go with a minimalist look and add plenty of florals to the room. I’m yet to decide on a table topper but wish for a mix of pastels. I have confetti and little floral buds and petals picked out to sprinkle over the table in a variety of pastel mix.

As there will be so little of us, I’ve requested for just one large table to dine at with the hope for plenty of interaction and chatting. After all, it’s about having a good time. I thought that a top table with a few others would be too spaced out and not have the cosy feel that I’m looking for. I’d like to imagine everyone chatting away and having a merry wine together. I want plenty of laughter from all and for everyone to have a great time.

I’m trying to work as inexpensive as possible, mainly due to the fact I don’t want glitz or glam and I don’t believe that spending a fortune makes for a good day. I mean the average cost of a wedding is near enough £26,000. Madness.

I hope to keep my budget at £1500 all in all. That’s for the rings, ceremony, reception meal and drinks, the hotel suites along with everything else. I’m keen to remain strict in this. Call me a cheap skate but I don’t believe in splashing the cash out for one day. I don’t deem it ever necessary to fork out such an expense and I don’t think a huge expense ensures a good time either.

I want to do lots of hand crafting, lots of creating and get making. I’d like to take on as big of a role as I can with the whole. Preparation and have my wedding crafted by my own hand. There’s something about doing it yourself that just screams good vibes.

I’m super excited to get stuck in and get my hands busy with crafting and my mind busy with planning. When I have a little more plans in place and something more to show, I will share with you all. In the meantime, I’ll get back to browsing etsy and other local markets for home made goods and crafting parts that I can put together by my own hands. I have been a local at hobby craft of late. Trailing the aisles for bits and bobs that I can work with. May I add, I am by no means good with arts and crafts.

I aim for my wedding day to be as close to heart as possible and therefore hope to put most of the day together by myself or with the help from some close family members. Opting for a local, homemade wedding day that I can cherish forever more.

Does anyone have any tips or tricks on homemade weddings? I’m open to any ideas and suggestions that are just a little bit different from the norm!

Keren xo

 

Breast is best. Or is it?

As I near the six month mark of exclusively breastfeeding my Daughter, I have chosen to reflect on this time and my experiences with nursing my newborn.

It’s pushed upon new Mothers to breastfeed from the get go, we are encouraged to push through and nurse our young, told that the benefits are endless. It can wash away the baby blues, prevent colic and reflux and help with bonding. Not to mention it is free.

Now, from the get go I wanted to try to breastfeed but was unsure if I’d be able to, if I could produce enough milk to maintain a healthy baby and help them to thrive. Fortunately, breastfeeding was the one thing I wanted to do that had went to plan. I mean, I could get into labour chat and tell you how terribly wrong that all went but I’ll spare the gory details.

From day one, hours after delivery, Eleanor found the breast and was able to feed to her potential. Within weeks she had regained her birth weight and was clearly thriving. I was proud to have been a big part of her development both physically and mentally.

What I did not know and was never told though was just how intense breastfeeding could be and that babies cluster feed day and night. In the beginning I was exhausted and spent these precious new weeks as a Mother with my baby attached to me, so much so, she had to sleep in our bed.

While in hospital the midwives would greet me with “you are still feeding?” as Eleanor would feed for hours and hours. Religiously and relentlessly. Breastfeeding is an around the clock job and it isn’t always easy. There have been tears, frustrations and arguments, believe me.

I found that my bond with my baby was at times strained because I was so exhausted from the constant feeding or the crying for milk that I didn’t feel a connection. I felt as though my baby only seen me as a milk machine and was tired of not having any time to myself, not even to have a five minute shower before the cries started. This wasn’t how it was supposed to be.

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Breastfeeding certainly has not prevented colic or reflux in our case as Eleanor has had such bother with wind and tummy problems she would be up all through the night crying and screaming out in pain. Something which we were left feeling helpless to and often spent hours walking with her or massaging her tummy in the dark. Sleep was not our friend and even now I get periods of insomnia.

It’s awful to watch your baby wriggle in pain and feel so useless. Colic was something I have no experience of and when it struck, I was really quite clueless. It took a lot of advice and research to understand it with no root cause ever being diagnosed. The only thing that would help with the cries was for her to feed but this is turn made the issue worse and here we had a never-ending cycle of feeding, pain and cries.

When we finally got prescription medication for the colic and reflux, this helped tremendously. If anyone out there has a baby suffering and fears they are in pain, talk to your doctor and hopefully you can get the medical care and attention that is required to help your baby. It can be a tough journey and breastfeeding does not make for exemption from the dreaded colic.

I am glad to say that after much persevering and struggles, we finally have a happy baby who now smiles and plays as she should. It’s great to watch her grow and see her so happy without the painful cries and screams.

Eleanor will refuse to take a bottle now therefore this leaves her reliant on me for nursing and nobody else can help out with this. We have tried and tested different brands of bottles, different people taking turns to try her with the bottle and many positions for feeding but to no avail.

Eleanor hates a bottle and refuses to feed unless it is directly from the breast which can make it difficult if we are out for a meal( such as we were during the festive period and I had to whisk her off for a feed before we even sat down to a starter). I hope that with weaning she will begin to take to the bottle, failing that, at least drink from a sip cup which I can express my milk Into for her.

On the upside to all of the negatives, over all I feel that it was my best decision to nurse my baby. I did not think I would have been able to feed her or that she would thrive through breastfeeding but her progress has been tremendous and has been the root cause for my persevering.

I feel proud that we have come so far with nursing and that I have not only grown a baby for nine months in the womb but continued to nurse and nourish her for a further five months and counting. Each day, I feel that our bond is growing and I can just tell that we will be the best of friends.

I’d certainly not knock breastfeeding and I would say that I’ve had a good experience with it in comparison to others and some horror stories I have read about. I like to think I’ve had it pretty easy.

I mean I have not suffered mastitis and my baby has always had a good latch with my milk produce being sufficient enough to provide for my baby and meet her growing needs. Exhausting and intense at times but rewarding all the same. I am glad I made the decision to nurse and to continue to push through even on the tough times.

Although I’d like to have had Eleanor feed from a bottle from time to time, you can’t have it all and I should remind myself just how fortunate I am that our breastfeeding journey has been without too much of a struggle and that we have made it thus far. It really does make me feel increasingly proud and womanly.

I like that with breastfeeding, I have managed to save money considerably as we have never had the expense to pay our for tubs of formula. I paid out for a medulla breast pump and a variety of different bottles to try but overall, we have saved around £50 each month on formula alone.

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I also like that with breastfeeding it is convenient and on tap. I don’t have to mess around fixing up bottles or sterilising equipment. My milk is at the ready as and when my baby needs.

I’d recommend anyone  give it a try but I am not saying it is the best thing in the world, it too comes with its own struggles and can be nothing but draining. Whatever works for you! Formula or breastfed, a fed baby is a happy baby and I think that no matter the method of feeding, fed is best. I hold no bias to either side, I just wanted to share my experience with nursing.

Has anyone had a good or bad breastfeeding experience?

Keren.

Let’s talk resolutions.

Happy New Year guys! With a New Year in place, I wish to talk about some healthy changes I plan to adhere to for the foreseeable future. Changes I have made for myself to live better and healthier. Or at least here’s hoping.

The two resolutions that I hold for this year are,  to regain a healthy relationship with food and to begin to read more books.

I’ve previously posted about the struggle I have with my weight and the fight to maintain a slim frame.

For years now I have been reluctant to eat certain foods and intake over 1200 calories daily. I turn away any treats that I deem to be bad and have lost all enjoyment from food. Even dining out had become an issue with me and was mentally draining. I would look at menus and feel a great deal of anxiety building up if I couldn’t see pancakes available on the menu.

Hell, I once claimed to be gluten intolerant as an excuse to avoid carbohydrates and other danger foods. At 22 years of age and 39kgs, I knew the reason for my swollen and tired body was through effect of Ill eating and malnourishment. A gluten intolerance was a mere cover up to my poor choices.

As a resolution for 2018 and keen to gain a better outlook to my general health, I have been working to improve my relationship with food and change my diet significantly. Pancakes or porridge oats for each and every meal doesn’t quite cut it anymore, no matter how much fruit I throw into the mix, my diet requires more substance and less empty calories.

Especially now, as a Mother, I have a reputation to withstand and must be the influence that my Daughter needs. I want for her to see me eating well,  to copy and adapt to a healthy lifestyle as she grows so she can become a strong, healthy and happy individual with a good relationship to food.

I realise just how important food is for survival and that I need to intake key foods to help my body thrive and nourish as it should. As I am breastfeeding at the moment, I am very cautious with what I eat and drink and always have my Daughter in mind when I eat at the moment. As she relies on me for her food and nourishment, I have to ensure I intake goods that will provide her with what she needs to grow.

I like to ensure I intake a full three meals a day and snack on healthy goods such as fruits and nuts. I am on the road to becoming a vegetarian with meat stripped from my diet and weekly shops made up of mostly fruit, grains and vegetables. I am hoping that with a good mindset and vision I can maintain these healthy behaviours and pass on good habits to my Daughter who will be beginning her weaning journey in mere weeks. Something which I am both excited and anxious of.

I also hope to become better with reading again, I aim to read as much as I can, covering a wide range of topics and varieties of genres.

As a one time book worm, I have fallen off the wagon and put reading aside. I got a little lost and side tracked with pregnancy and having a newborn, it left little time to sit down and treat myself to a cup of coffee and a reading session. However, as Eleanor grows and I take back control of my life, I have made it my mission to encourage reading once more.

I’m onto my second book of the year and hope there will be many more to come. I have a set list of books I wish to work my way through and I’m sure as the weeks pass my reading list will grow.

I think that reading is a great past time and a healthy one too. I wish to put more into reading and less time watching the television or scrolling the Internet. There is a lot to be learned from books and I am keen to get stuck into the world of fiction once more and lose myself in a good book.

Do you have any resolutions for the year 2018? Making any big lifestyle changes? Let me know.

Keren x

Reflecting on the past, working for the present. Cheers to 2017.

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As we reach the end of another year, I wave goodbye to what seems an era. I can’t help but to think that 2017 has brought so much good to my family and it has been a year of some very important firsts. First trip to the States, the first time I practiced yoga,  first pregnancy, first baby. The list goes on.

I am not a “new year, new me” kinda gal, rather I am waving goodbye to 2017 with many fond memories and a heart full of love as I look forward to the pending year ahead and all that 2018 has to bring to the table.

I reflect on 2017 as one of the best years of my life and I feel that during the course of the year I really did discover myself more as a person, hold relationships close and love harder. 2017 was the year for me, there’s no hiding that fact.

I discovered I was pregnant on January second and ever since, the news just kept getting better. At first, the news was a little daunting and quite hard to take, especially as I didn’t plan to conceive at this time. It didn’t seem the right time but in hindsight it was the best time to begin a family and I wouldn’t have it any other way. They say what’s meant for you won’t pass you by, I’m beginning to believe that.

I passed my driving test and obtained a license, flew over the Grand Canyon on St. Valentines day, birthed my beautiful girl, Eleanor. I said yes to the one I love. The year 2017 not only brought a host of good memories and achievements but it brought my family and that is something I will be forever grateful of.

I end the year as a Mother and a Wife to be, a Daughter and a friend. As I step out of one year and into the next, I can only hope for a bigger and better year. I have goals I would like to reach and milestones to hit.

I hope to be a great Mother and a partner and I hope to find my feet on the career path. I wish to be happier and healthier than ever and for this to shine on through to my Daughter so that she can be taught good lessons for life and follow on from a good example.

I wish to become more confident both as a Mother and as a person. Since birthing my daughter I have found that I have become more anxious than ever before, this is something that I want to work on and improve. I’ll never be the most confident woman in the room but I want to be able to speak up and step out without fear. Not just for myself, but for my Daughter. I wish for her to grow to be independent and strong with the ability to stand her ground and hold her head with a great confidence.

I wish to become healthier and find happiness in food. I would like to experiment and try out different foods from porridge oats, fruit and chocolate. I want to restore my faith in the kitchen and get back to cooking healthy and nutritional meals to share with my family.

The shopping cart has been filled with goodies of all variety and I hope to continue to keep a healthy balance and a meal plan to regain strength I have lost from years of eating scarcely. I am ready to enjoy food and the benefits of food once again. Enough of skipping proper meals and cutting foods.

I would like to travel some places, first up, Cyprus come April – First family holiday as the three of us. I wish to read more books, a past time that I once loved yet has drifted from me with the recent course of events and a whectic schedule and I wish to plan a special wedding day. I’d love to say that I’d stop biting my nails but that has been a life long habit that I can’t seem to kick, no matter what the year has been!

I sit here and write this with my baby in my arms as we await Euan to arrive home from work. As a family we will be bringing in the New Year with a tin of fizzy juice (full fat, how dare we?!) and a midnight kiss goodnight.

No party animals over here, just two tired parents and a lively baby looking forward to the year ahead and all that it may bring.

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Here is to 2017,the best year of my life to date and to 2018 – let’s try to do one up on this year. Onwards and upwards we go as we carry on our journey into the New Year as a family of three.

Let the wedding planning commence. I wish for you all a very happy New Year, let’s hope it’s good to you all and brings to you the joy that I have experienced from this year.

Happy New Year and all the best, Keren x

We set the date!

Well, I must say that the year has been kind to us. The most special year I have had yet, the year we began the family adventure, the year we got engaged, the year life as we knew it changed forever. I have taken only the good from 2017 and will carry it with me for the rest of my life. It’s not every year you have your first child or get engaged!

To keep the trend going and end the year with a bang, we decided to take the plunge, set the date and book our wedding ceremony. We done this is all of two days may I add, with a baby in tow. Productivity at its finest.

With having the perfect date in mind, we already had a good idea of when we would wed, we just didn’t have the year in place. The fourth of September was our date of choice, already a special day for us as it is both our anniversary and the date of which we took Eleanor to have her birth registered. We thought to extend the day with another happy memory and add to it the day that we are to become husband and wife.

Euan called the office on Friday morning to check that the date was available for the coming year, 2018. They had the date free and we had the choice of time slot to attend. With it being a Tuesday, a funny day to marry.. we know, we went with an early afternoon slot. As the local registrar is a central location we wanted a time that it wouldn’t be rush hour so to speak and guests would have easy access to the venue.

Our ceremony will be small with only family in attendance. Euans parents and their partners, Euan’s grandparents and my parents. My side of the family will be outnumbered however, we decided that we didn’t want siblings or extended family at the ceremony. Small and sweet. Our witnesses will be our birth Mother’s.

To follow, we have booked a small room that can host up to twenty guests at the Carmelite in Aberdeen. We have a room from 5pm and will be greeted with some arrival drinks and finger foods for our wedding party before further guests arrive for the evening meal which will be a sit down three course job with drinks to follow for those who feel like having a few. We are aware it is a school night and people may want to leave promptly after the meal, we don’t expect a wild night by any accord. I don’t think I’d hack that to be honest.

Something I previously hadn’t planned on having however with the extended guests, we decided it would be best to host a meal where we can make special memories with our nearest and dearest. We have chosen specific finger foods and a set menu that will cater for everyone with a few minor adjustments to me carried out.

The room will be filled with just twenty of our guests with three children included. Though quite small, we will have just one rounded table for eating with guests and have decided to decorate the room with different chairs and a variety of colours and fabrics.

The room will have a quirky setting with lot’s of florals for the added bohemian vibes. I’m a big fan of anything floral and have even ordered myself a flower crown for the day rather than the classic veil.

I’m not giving too much away though, there are a lot of ideas out there and I’m still mulling over decor and styles without getting over the top or stepping into a territory of expense.

My dress is all set, it’s not a wedding dress by no accord and it is certainly not designer not expensive, but it’s a dress that was gifted to me several years ago that I have been desperate to wear, it just was never suited to a day trip to the shops or visiting my Mother. It’s a special dress that I have kept in my wardrobe with the tags still on waiting patient for the perfect occasion.

Come closer to the time, I’ll share a sneak preview with you all. Don’t worry. I’d love to share all with you bunch but I have to keep some level of suspense.

We did stick to our guns and keep it as a small affair as we have no need for a big day, all we wanted was a simple yet elegant day to cherish for years to come. I can’t believe when I marry I will be holding my baby girls hand the whole way through! What a privilege, I am certainly one lucky lady and a very proud Mother.

We have found wedding bands and sized ourselves up, with a click of a button we can have them ordered to suit. I have the fancy diamond band as an engagement ring, with a wedding band I have went as basic as you can go I want nothing more than a slim yet timeless platinum band to mark my commitment.

The invites are set to go and the venues are booked, now we just need to pull it all together and we are well on our way to celebrating our big day. There’s a lot of work going on with us behind the scenes and much planning to do – much more than I expected. The notebook is out, the ideas are in and I’m never off of etsy as I try to source ideas and material for the day.

Keep your eyes peeled for further posts and wedding updates, I’m sure there will be plenty and lots of big reveals on the way. Now, if you don’t mind, I’m off to plan for the big day and scour the net for some mini moon ideas. I’m thinking a City break for the three of us.

Lots of love,

Keren x