A few years back, I’d have never imagined myself to be in the position that I am on this day. October 4th 2017, my birthday.
Today I turned twenty five. I woke up in a bed with the two love of my life’s and will end the day as I woke, snuggled up with my family. Yep, my own family. A family is something that seemed so out of reach to me just a few short years, yet here we are. To say I am loving life is an understatement.
Tired, lacking any personal time and living in a dressing gown, spending most of the day nursing my baby and changing nappies, but so relentlessly happy.
I woke up at 3.32am to change Eleanor, changed days from the years where I would be crawling into my bed following a crazy Birthday night out where much wine was consumed and a hangover was inevitable. In fact, to this day, it was five years ago on my Birthday night out that I met Euan. Life works in mysterious ways.
A few years back had you asked my goals and future hopes, I’d not have had an answer. I simply didn’t know. I was pessimistic, lonely and I lacked motivation for anything other than hitting the town and losing myself to a few bottles of wine. A sad reality of my teenage years which followed until my early twenties. A waste.
Today, I turned twenty five with nothing but a positive mindset and a whole lot of creativity going on inside. I have a lot of ideas and plans for the future and I keep striving to do better. I finally feel as though I am living the life that was meant for me. From this year, my first year of Motherhood, I hope to achieve several goals:
I wish to keep writing and growing my blog. To channel my creativity through the personal space that I have designed online. My own space that was only just an idea held within an idle mind for several years until I brought it to life – with help and encouragement from Euan when I became pregnant. I finally felt that I had something to say and experience to share.
I wish for this new found positive outlook and mindset to stay with me, not just for the year but for the long term. To see the good in all things and to work on zoning out negatives and being more of an optimist. I have everything that I have ever wanted, my own family and with that notion I strive to be positive and bright for myself, my family and the life that we share.
and finally, I must get myself a wedding planner and begin to jot down all those little ideas and details which spring to mind when think about and picture my wedding day. A small affair, a good few years away as we are in no rush, but I like to be organised. Nothing thrills me more than to be writing lists and ticking items off the never ending to do list. What can be more fun or more creative to a gal than to create the wedding of her dreams on paper and watch as she puts in the time and the working effort to make those ideas from paper come together and live those ideas on our wedding day when the day arrives.
It’s been the best Birthday yet, the first Birthday that I have shared with my own family and it sure won’t be the last. Here is to twenty five and for all that it will bring, I hope to do better and achieve more than I ever have or could have imagined. Finally, here is to many more birthday’s that I can share with my family. My loves and my life.