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A Holly, jolly, Christmas.

Our first Christmas as a family of three has been and gone so I thought that I’d write a small blog dedicated to the big day. A special day for us as a new family and a day I’m sure will hold special memories for years to come.


As previously mentioned, we spent the day at home alone as a family. Family visits and meals were done and dusted before the day so that we could spend it alone and have some us time for a change. Life really does get so busy and you get caught up, forget to take time out for yourself and your family, especially at busy times like this but this year, we didn’t want for that to happen. This year was about us and our baby girl.

Now, we had the choice of options for where to spend the day but rather than run around like crazy and spend the whole day chasing tail, we decided to just have a quiet day indoors and enjoy the company of one another in the comfort of home. Take the day at our own pace.

On Christmas morning, we all excitedly woke. As tired as we were, Christmas is a big day and we wanted to make the most of the time we had. The eve was a rough night for a little Eleanor my poor tootie, she spent most of the night keeping Mum up with constant feeding. Although tired, we didn’t let it ruin the day. We pushed on and had a lovely time.

Once up and ready, we dressed and got Eleanor all sorted, in a little Mrs Claus outfit may I add! Too cute, I know. We played some music and sat around the tree as we exchanged and opened gifts. I made sure to allow Eleanor to touch and see each gift so she would have some knowledge of the moment. We all received lovely gifts and Eleanor was totally spoiled not just by Santa, but from the grandparents and family. It was so exciting opening her gifts and packing away all of her new goodies. It’s definitely clothes galore around here.


Presents aside, it was onto breakfast. Bacon rolls, a traditional Christmas breakfast with my family which we have carried on to our own. This is as followed by a walk around with our dog Fern before coming back home to relax before I began the dinner.

We played with Eleanor and watched some Netflix, listened to music.. Christmas classics of course. For the dinner, I made a tomato and pepper soup to start with, now.. this turned out to be more of a salsa and really not much of a soup. A few mouthfuls in, we laughed and decided to call it quits with the dodgy soup and wait for the main event. I mean, the bread was tasty at least. Not all terrible and we didn’t go hungry.

Between feeds we watched shows and chilled. There were plenty of snuggles and interactive conversation. The main course, a traditional Christmas dinner was quite the success and we ate it all really, Fern got the left overs which I’m sure she woofed down (she’s meant to be on a diet.. Shh). I intended to cook a turkey however, on Christmas eve I discovered it required forty eight hours to defrost, not just a mere twenty four which I had initially thought and planned for. Oops. You can probably tell that I don’t cook often, especially meat.

Last minute on Christmas eve, we had to make a run to Tesco to pick up some form of meat for the dinner. A pork and sage pre cooked joint. Phew. Thank you Tesco for saving the day. I’m still annoyed at myself with the Turkey though. I thought I was all set, could have been a disaster, I dread to think if I hadn’t checked the instructions and poisoned us all! My God.

In the evening, we hadn’t much room for dessert so rather we smacked on chocolates and watched Elf all cosied up on the couch with a blanket. Just the three of us with Fern at our feet and the snack bowl in our laps. I recall falling asleep for most of the movie, this is not unusual for me though, I’d had a sneaky glass of red, I was never going to survive after that. It was a lovely end to a great day together, watching a fun filled classic and reminiscing on the events of the past year. Boy, 2017 has been good to us. A year to remember for sure, I’ll post a blog to reflect on the year. The ups and the downs but for now, I just wanted to share an update about our first Christmas day as a wee team with our baby girl.

I couldn’t have wished for a better it, though quiet, we were content with the company we had and we got the day to relax which is what we wanted more than anything. Some down time after the whole rush from the weeks leading up to Christmas, time to refresh as far as that gets with a baby and to put our feet up. It sure is nice to stop and take a break from it all, especially as a family unit. Sitting back together and taking it all in is truly how it feels to be happy. To share a life with someone that you love and enjoy quality time.


For me, that is what Christmas is all about, the quality time to spend and share with family and loved ones. It was a day that I won’t ever forget and will forever hold a special place in my heart, even when things get a bit hectic, I can look back at this festive period and remember how relaxed and content that we were. Years from now when my baby is running around as High as a kite on Christmas day, I can peacefully look back and remember this first Christmas with her. At home as a new family finding our feet, snuggled up and embracing everything that life has to offer. I really love my family more than anything, I’d have never expected to experience such a love or even have my own family at this stage in my life. I am so proud and grateful for all that life has passed my way. What’s meant for you won’t pass you by.

Merry Christmas to you all, I truly wish that everyone had a great Christmas break and spent the day just as they wished to do so. Not to mention eat way too much spoils…guilty.

Next up, Hogmanay. Onto new beginnings, 2017 has been fantastic, here’s to the New Year and what that may bring our way.

Love Keren x

Embracing the last few weeks of living as a couple. Taking time out with my man.

With my due date fast approaching, I have been keen to spend as much time with my partner as I can (in between naps and early bed times), doing the things which we love or doing nothing at all, it doesn’t matter, any time together is precious. It is so important to me that we take time out together and make the most of it whilst we can.


I know that when our baby arrives, we will be limited to alone time, there will be so much focus over our little one and adapting to family life that we won’t have the same time as we do now to give one another.  Don’t get me wrong, it will be amazing to be a family but I do think at times I will miss the days where it was just us.During the past few weeks, we have been squeezing in as much time together as we can. To embrace and look back upon with happy memories, especially with this being such an exciting time. I suppose you could almost call it a baby moon. A slightly extended and less extravagant baby moon. No holidays unfortunately, just staying local and making the most of each day and enjoying life together, all the while, learning more and more about each other by the day and scarily becoming more alike! We can now finish each other’s sentences or let out the same word in the same moment. Uh oh.

In recent weeks, we have enjoyed days off from work together, spent a weekend away in Edinburgh – which was so nice. A well needed break for the both of us. It is great to just walk around a new City and take it all in, watching people go about their own daily business. You could say this was the last holiday before baby, it was exactly how I wanted it to be. Dining out at a Thai cuisine, listening to live music in a small and cosy pub until late, coffee mornings and a trip to the Zoo with an evening tour of the Cities underground. I missed out back in May when Euan went out to Malaysia to visit family, I was intending to go with him and the trip had been booked for almost a year. Sadly, I was unable to travel with the risk of Zika virus and had time at home alone instead. Which, I may add was horrible. I did not take well to being alone and became a whole bag of emotions, crying most of the time he was away. Silly, I know.

It is important to me to spend time with loved ones and I feel that you have to put effort into a relationship all of the time, it doesn’t have to be a huge effort but showing support and love can go a long way. Often we can forget what is important and get too caught up with other things that go on from day to day. Work commitments and issues, daily stresses, family problems, etc. It can become very difficult to balance your life and all that comes with it, and can become too much. I want to be in a strong and healthy relationship, have my child grow up in a happy and loving environment. Family is all that most of us have and it is imperial we hold the ones we love close.

Besides a weekend away and various other days out we enjoyed a gig from Blink 182 at a local event venue. A blast from the past you could say and yes, at 33 weeks pregnant, I forced myself out to listen to some live music. We enjoyed greasy gig food and obviously picked up a T-shirt from the merchandise stall to add to the collection. As the evening went on, I did begin to struggle with back pain and tired legs from standing so we ended up sitting at the back of the crowd on the cold concrete floor and listening to the set end from the sidelines. A world away from the gigs I went to in teenage years. I had a great evening and I am sure Euan did too. Getting out and doing something a little different from the norm can make all the difference. A breath of fresh air and another memory to add to the bag. We can tell baby that her first gig was Blink 182. Pretty cool. 



We haven’t too much planned over the next few weeks, I wanted to keep things tame. I am becoming tired and sore, my knees begin to burn after long days so I think it is time to wind down and relax more. Off to see family this weekend for a night and we have booked to go out for a meal next month at my favourite Indian restaurant. I’m sure we will squeeze in as much cinema trips as we can which means lots of ice cream and pick n mix. Bonus. At this rate, the amount of time we spend at the cinema, I’ll be lucky if I don’t start labor during a screening.  I must say, I am excited to slow down and stop a little. To sit back and get ready to begin a new chapter. I can’t wait for my journey as a family to begin and to get stuck in my own little love bubble with the two people I will hold the closest. but for now, I am just enjoying the last days we hold together as a couple and falling more in love with my man than ever. I am very fortunate to have someone so genuine,good and caring by my side. I cannot wait for what family life will bring and to watch my best friend become a Father.




Preparing for baby; a sea of emotions. A lifetime of exhaustion.



I find my mind ponder over family life. As I sit here around the kitchen table, tired, alone,uncomfortable and a little sore I wonder what is to come next. In my third and final trimester and about to hit the 31 week mark, I can’t help but think about welcoming baby into the world and starting family life at long last.

Thirty weeks down and just a few short weeks to go, I feel so ready yet uncertain to begin a new start. I just want to hold my baby and start that lifelong bond. To start a new life. To begin again as a family.  To explore a new love, a love that is said will last forever. To discover a new routine. To settle.

I am at the stage where I have began to slow down. Things I could previously do with ease are becoming more of a struggle by the day. Tying shoes, emptying the washing basket, simple household tasks, walking distances. I feel a fraud to complain about such minor things and how tired I feel. Daily tasks are becoming a chore and the tiredness is like nothing I have experienced before. I try to keep up with my lifestyle, to get the same exercise in, to rush around, buzzing about from morning through to night when I rest my head on the pillow. but my body is telling me to slow down. To relax, take a break (or ten). The strain is starting to creep up over me and I am left feeling a little useless.



At thirty weeks, I feel my body deflating and taking a hit.Overworked and definitely exhausted, I think it is finally time to start to chill out and take a back seat. To relax and to embrace relaxation, something I don’t really know how to do. I can’t even sit through a movie at home never mind chill out. I always have to be busy. Daily tasks will have to wait and rest should be welcomed. The hoovering CAN wait. Nothing bad will happen if I don’t do it for one day.

I must begin to prepare my mind for baby and gear up to become a parent. Nobody ever teaches you what you need to know about becoming a parent or how to prepare for such a life changing event. It’s no subject taught in school. How can I prepare? Does motherhood always come so naturally? Does that maternal instinct take over as soon as you set eyes upon your newborn? A child you have nourished and grown for the best part of a year.

  “A moment a child is born, a mother is born with them”

  Questions fill my mind at this stage about motherhood. There is little else I find myself thinking about to be quite frank. Becoming a new parent brings with it so much thoughts. So much anxiety, nerves and emotions. Will I be a good mother? Will I know what to do? Will my baby bond with me? My child grow to love and appreciate me as I will them?

Parenthood is stepping into the unknown. There are no manuals to prepare oneself for this with, every experience is different. No one person gives the same advice, the same tips. It can be overwhelming. There are masses of information for first time parents out there, so much material to wrap your head around. Where to begin? What information is legitimate?  What articles stand true to form? Can I relate my experience to that of anyone else when each pregnancy, each parent, each child is so different?

My emotions are at an all time high, ever changing through the day. Happy, sad, anxious, excited, scared. You name it, I’m feeling it. At such a prime time in life, with so much going on, I suppose it is understandable to feel this way. A mixed bag. Uncertain of what is to come. Of how to prepare. To step into the unknown is daunting yet thrilling. I don’t know if any amount of preparation will set me up for what is to come, for this life journey I am about to embark on. I don’t know if I will ever be able to prepare to become a mother until that moment I set my eyes on my baby and first hold my child.

I only hope that when my baby arrives and I can finally hold them. To hold onto that tiny hand, touch those tiny fingers and kiss their head, my maternal instinct will take over and somehow I will know what I have to do. Who I have to be and how I have to love. To protect. To nurture.  I hope that my maternal instinct will consume my mind, my body and in that moment, that first moment I hold my baby, my tiny human, I will know exactly what I am doing and everything will be OK. I will be OK.

I am ready for a love to last a lifetime and to feel in ways that I have never yet felt. To give and receive pure love and sheer happiness. The sort of happiness that they say only a child can bring. Only a parent can experience. I want to feel those feelings and experience such love.

To become a mother. A teacher. A leader. A friend.