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Babies first..trip to A&E.

I noticed as I woke a little dried blood on the bed sheet, this had come from Eleanor’s ear which has also specks of blood dried up. Worried by this, I cleaned her up and kept my eye for any odd behaviour and warning signs of infections.

Eleanor has lately grown an obsession with tugging and piking at her ears, more noticeably when she is tired or having trouble with her teeth. I think she uses this as a comforting mechanism. I figured that in her sleep she must have caught herself and given a good scratch with her nails leaving a little damage behind. I wasn’t aware there was an ear infection brewing, and rapidly.

At lunch time, Euan came home for lunch as usual and was having his cuddle with Eleanor before heading back out when he passed comment that her ear was smelly and raw looking. Upon inspection, I began to panic that there was something serious under lying and that a minor irritation wasn’t just the issue. How I hadn’t noticed, I in the few hours from waking to lunch, I don’t know. Eleanor’s ear was raw red, pussy and definitely infected. There no mistaken the smell of an infection.

I called the doctor and got an appointment for the following afternoon and was advised to clear up her ear with sterile salt water regularly. Happy with this advice, I done so and I done so as best as I could. As best as I could with a wriggly six month old anyway. I was happy that this was going to settle this issue and ease of discomfort until the following day, however come 8PM after a wee trip out, her ear was progressively worse and smelling very angry, looking very unhappy.

Poor baby was having trouble, you could tell she wasn’t feeling right, irritable, crying for what seemed to reason and refusing food. We decided to take further action and call the late night doctor, got booked in and headed off soon after to the emergency department. Upon arrival, we were told to head to the fracture clinic..now,a young couple with a crying baby heading to the fracture clinic, passing a room full of waiting patients never looks good, does it?

I actually felt as though our every moved was being scrutinised by unaware individuals as we passed. Needless to say, I kept my head down. Low profile and all that. The wait wasn’t too long and Eleanor sat on our knees and had a wee play, good as gold really. You wouldn’t have thought it by the cries coming from her in the car but she surpassed expectations.

The doctor had a check of all her crucial stats and inspected her ears. Low and behold, an ear Infection.. Perhaps a burst ear drum but too hard to know with being unable to see far down the canal and Eleanor being so small. We were given a dose of amxocillin for a course of six days to clear up the infection and advised to see the Gp after this time for a check over to get the all clear. With this being her ears, I’d not like to risk lasting damage and will call first thing tomorrow to arrange for a check up. My poor baby.

It seems to be one thing after another for her right now and with being so tiny, so helpless, I really feel all of her pain only I wish I could take it away and have her as comfortable as possible at all times. Teething, colds, coughs, rashes with sensitive skin, ear aches…you name it. Man, I never thought a baby could suffer from so much in one spell. I was made aware that breastfeeding would help to eliminate colds/coughs etc and aid the immune system for both Mum and baby but this is not the case with us. We seem to pass back and forth colds and all sorts. I just wish for my baby to get a break!

It breaks my heart to see her so unhappy and unwell. It truly is the most horrible thing to see someone you love so deeply in pain and distress. Thigh she takes it like a trooper and still smiles throughout the tears, it just makes me so upset. I only wish for her a speedy recovery and hopefully some lasting relief, a break from all of the growing pains, the teething, the colds. You name it.

Motherhood really is more than just nursing a sleeping baby and changing nappies. Each day is so complex and different from the next, you dint know what is around the corner and babies moods can change in an instant. As Eleanor grows, I find there is so many complications that growth brings. The spurts, the sleep regression, teething, general unwellness, issues with sensitivity, all things that you do not really prepare for or fully expect when you bring home your newborn on those first days. It’s not all black and white as I am learning and Motherhood is challenging, it is testing and it is powerful.

I’ve never known a love like this and the want for a better life for this little lady. Here’s to a fast recovery, I’m off to sneak her some cuddles as she rests before hitting the hay myself. I’m sure I won’t sleep for worry and checking on her but I’ll give it a try. Tomorrow is a new day and with that I’m hopeful it can be a better day and I will see my baby happy once again.

What was your first experience with a trip to accident and emergency with your babe? Has anyone had trouble with ear infections in children?

Goodnight, Keren.

Out with old…

and in with the new, or so the saying goes. Tonight,  I done a real adult thing which I’m quite excited by and want to share with you bunch. I have bought my first Apple Mac book! Hurrah.

Perhaps a small achievement for some of you, and not all too big if a deal. but for me, this has been on the wish list for a long time only it was never something I could justify spending on. I had no use for a laptop, not a half decent one anyway. Now, with my blog and spending more time online than I do going out, I thought it was high time for a splurge.

I know, I’m a little late to this game. About a decade or so late to be precise but better late than never right? I’ve got on that Apple bandwagon and branched out with the aim to spend more time with my blogging and social media interaction. I’d like to create my own wee personal profile of family life and decided to have all my images and files stored efficiently and effectively in one secure place, a laptop.

I’ve found some sort of inner voice as of late, one that comes out through my writing and I have found that actually, I have quite a lot to share and say. With being a new Mother and starting family life, I have more to speak about than ever and I am always scrolling online for ideas, tips, advice. With the use of my blog and writing, I’ve found it quite easy to access plenty of helpful material and gain a lot of insight to Parenting and dealing with life post partum.

I mean, not only now am I tending to a baby, I am trying to piece myself back together and find happiness from within. I am trying to learn to be healthy again and to be stronger each day. I want to show my Daughter that happiness comes from within and I want her to be able to love herself in ways that I have not yet been able to love myself.

I’m trying, and I find chatting online with other Mum’s and hearing/reading stories of others parenting journey and post partum  recovery really pushes myself through and gives me the motivation I need to continue to work on a positive body image. Blogging has really helped with opening up and reaching ort. Through my blog, I don’t feel so alone and there is always someone reading who can relate.

I can now blog on the go, hold my images close and have a wee device, a little space of my own. I woke up this morning sick of my old Acer that takes about three hours to do updates (really?!) and shuts down as I try to work on it. I decided on a whim that enough was enough, time to grow up and branch out. At a price yes, but with my blog becoming more of a secure hobby –  the only hobby I have stuck with since dabbling with a range of hobbies from childhood, I thought I’d treat myself to something that will last.

A secure device to hold lasting memories and I’m quite excited to get started, work on my blog as much as I can and explore other means and forms of social media. I think I’d like to build a social following online and make friends with more of you, interact and learn. It is 2018 after all and I can’t shy away from life and every day goings on forever.

A new laptop is something which I am quite proud of, I’ve only ever owned big standard, poor quality devices and have actually more recently been relying on my mobile to create my blog space and use the internet. To have a Mac will be so great and really bring me to push my limits and self motivate. I can bring this with me on the go as it is so lightweight and blog/note down ideas as I get around each day.

My plan is to venture into vlogging eventually, or at least give it my best shot. I’m not very good on camera though and I tend to shy away, something I’ll need to work on. I have traded in my old laptop and got a healthy gift card from PC World for doing so, I plan to save a little to add to this sum and purchase a go pro which will help with the transition from blogging to vlogging and really create a blog kit that I can make good content with and be proud of.

I am keen to edit videos and have my own home videos of family days out, holidays and just general family life. As Eleanor grows, my focus is on her more and more, I want to capture all of the moments of her early years and create home videos to look back on with great memories come years. Who knows how this will go but I have a plan and I am working forward to make my visions come to life.

Watch this space and keep your eyes peeled for new blogs. I like to be quite active with my blog, it tends to be a good way for myself to let go and take a break from the crazy day to day life. Has anyone got experience with a go pro or can recommend any other video cameras to capture and create content? Any advice would be welcome, I’m just starting out and though I have my own ideas, it’s always nice to get fresh opinions from others.


Keren x